I am a 30 years old wife to a 40 years very nice man. We got married on September 26th 2004. I always wanted so much to get pregnant as soon as possible as we are not too young anymore. This is the first marriage to my husband,and the 2nd for me. I have a 9 years old son Joshua from my 1st marriage who live with his Daddy since we got divorced 7 years ago.

On October 30rd 2004,i buy some home pregnancy test at hospital where my mom was lying after operation. I checked it and it turned out POSITIVE... Couldn't believe it,i tried another 2 tests and it also turned out to be POSITIVE !!!

We went to my Dsog on November 1st 2004,and he said i'm 4 weeks pregnant... I was soooo happy and so did my husband...

The days after that,i started spotting light brown vleks on my underwear but i though5t it was OK on early pregnancies.

But thoose light brown vleks become red on November 5th 2004. We went to Hospital and the nurses told me to overnight ther,to take a bedrest until i could meet the Doctor the next morning. So i did...

The next morning,we met the Doctor. I did a USG and Doctor said my GS was still good.it was 1 cm. I could go on with my pregnancy but need to take a total bedrest for 2 weeks at home,until my 2nd appointment on November 20.

Things became worse on November 11th 2004,when i started my cramps and bleeding. Again,we went to hospital and this time the Doctor said...the GS wasn't good anymore and i should have a D&C as soon as possible.

I couldn't stop my tears... I wanted this baby so much... I loved my baby so much...

Doctor shedulled the D&C on the next morning,November 12th 2004 at 07.00

We went out from the hospital with an emptyness on our heart. Doctor will take my baby tomorrow. I'll be no more pregnant...

God wanted my baby back... He promise a better place for my baby...

That's why i made this Home Page...just for me to remember that i was pregnant...i had a baby on my womb...i was a mommy even only 6 weks...